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	It has come to my attention that some like me for what I can give to them. It has nothing what so ever to do with Me, and more to do with what they want/need. In the larger scheme of life, it wouldn't be so bad a deal. Yet ...  In only taking from me what they want and need, they give little in return. So busy are they in the taking. So blind in the feeding. They don't see Me. I fill a void, meet a need, make them smile and feel good about themselves. I reaffirm that they are alive, when in reality, they're not. Their lives are empty and since they have no idea how to fill the gaping abyss of their personal darkness, they look for someone to do it all for them. Here I am. Willing to do for others what they cannot, will not do for themselves. It makes me stop and wonder why I do this. Why I take it onto myself and never demand anything in return. And I do mean 'demand' ... I think I have the right to do so. If I suddenly stopped being so accommodating, so willing to give, would they retreat and seek solace else where?  And if they did, how would that make Me feel? Would they realize just how much I had been giving and begin to repay the debt that they had incurred? You scoff and bristle at the word, "debt" don't you? You think that this is what friends do, they do for one another. I would agree. But friends do not use each other for their own gain, without considering what they can give in return. Friendship is a give and take world. And if you only give or only take, where is the true friendship in that? If I am here for you, but you are not there for me, who gains? If I only seek you out when I have needs, but am not willing to be there for you in your pain, who gains? If I can sit and tell you all about my life, but never ask or listen to you about your own, who gains? We are a selfish lot. And I wonder why I do this? And why I don't demand for myself, what I deserve. Who gains in that? Friendship is a give and take world, and apparently I do not live in that world.
				GlassPoet ~2002~
					Dang, I sound so angry don't I? I'm not angry - just saddened